Thursday, January 12, 2012

All about 2011

  2011 was quite a hard year for me especially at the year end

  There was quite a few events happened which was kinda unforgettable. Unforgettable in the sense that hmmm... should I say those event terrified me ?! o.O I'm not sure. But one of them surely was my tooth operation. I'm impressed with myself !! I'm the one who made the decision and to be honest... The day I went to the hospital I felt a lil lil regret... But I've made it in the end !! *clap clap ^^ Of course I was very terrified when I went into the operation room... That's my first time of course...

  Well the most terrified me was my grandpa (my dad's dad)... It all happened when I heard the doctor tell me that there was a tumour on my grandpa pancreas though he didn't tell us directly but we all knew that was a cancer... On that moment I saw my mom, dad, grandpa and grandma, their eyes are all in tears but they try to hold back... Of course mine too, I try my very best to not let the tears fall down.. I have to support my family !! That's the first time I face death... It was really scary and terrified me... Although my grandpa is okay until today, but the doctor said is just the matter of time depending on the growth of the tumour. All of sudden, tons of questions came to my mind. What happened if we lost him? What should I do? What happened if he's not by our side? ....... When I was small I use to play with him happily, since when we seldom talk to each other ?? Though I care, I never speak or act. When I know one day he's going to left us, only then I know I was taking his present for granted. It makes me regret. Now when I try to speak all I can do was ask, do you feel ok today ? Have you eaten ? but his negative answer always made me fear to ask or talk to him more as he has depression. All I hope now was please remain the same as now, please don't bring pain to him.. Do us human will only know how to care and treasure something only when we know we're going to lose them ?!

  Well my dad's dad made me sad, my mom's dad made me angry !!! Ugh !! I'm so hate to talked about it ! All I know was if something happen to my mom's mom, I will never ever forgive him !!!

  When 2011 comes to the end and everyone was counting down happily, I was there studying for my final while praying that the new year 2012 will be better off...



  1. i really miss you right now. :( Have a great year ahead! :D

  2. Yen, I know how it feels like to lose someone you love.
    But until that, until that very day, please try to be happy. Even if your time with your love ones is limited.